Unwavering Confidence

​In Genesis 12, God commanded Abraham to leave his homeland and go forth into an unknown country.  Abraham obeyed, but along the way, Abraham allowed fear to influence him and lied to Pharaoh about who his wife was.  He was worried that he would be killed if Pharaoh realized Sarah was his wife.  Abraham found his own solution in response to his fear (which might have been a valid fear; who knows) by lying and saying Sarah was his sister.

​After the obedience of stepping out in faith, God will test your resolve--many times.  He does this to give us opportunities to anchor ourselves even more firmly in Him.  ​

At the end of 2019, my husband and I made the decision to go into full time mission work.  After preparing for months (quitting our jobs, selling our belongings, getting our affairs in order, etc.), we were delayed for a year due to COVID.  Finally, the door to our destination country opened.  But weeks after arriving in a new country, fears and doubts overwhelmed me. I allowed fear to cause me to think about leaving and going to a more safe and convenient lifestyle.  In the going forth of the “yes”, have you allowed fears and doubts to creep in?  Are you trying to quiet those fears by providing your own solution? 
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In the Psalms, I keep being drawn back to trusting the Lord.  I especially like how the Amplified defines trust in Psalm 28:7.  “The Lord is my strength and my impenetrable shield; my heart trusts [with unwavering confidence] in Him, and I am helped; Therefore my heart greatly rejoices, and with my song I shall thank Him and praise Him.”  Psalm 31:6 says, “But I trust in the Lord [and rely on Him with unwavering confidence].  (Emphasis mine)
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"But as for me, I trust [confidently] in You and Your greatness, O Lord; I said, 'You are my God'." (Amplified)  (emphasis mine)  All fears and doubts should dissipate in the simplicity of the statement, “YOU ARE MY GOD”.  Because He is my God, because His lovingkindnesses endure forever; because of His faithfulness, how can I have anything else BUT unwavering confidence in Him?

I don't know what God has planned for my life.  Will I serve here or somewhere else?  I don't know.  But I know Him and it is enough.  

Lord, help me to anchor myself steadfastly, unhaltingly, with no doubts, upon You.  May my faith be firmly anchored in You so that no storm, trial, pain, loss, discouragement or unknown can shake or threaten or lessen or dissuade my trust and unwavering confidence in You for one single moment.  I thank You for Your faithfulness and praise You in this moment for Your goodness towards me.