If I were a better Christian, then...

 I have not written a Blog in almost a year. A year is a long time, yet it seems like it has only been two months.  This last year has been challenging and often frustrating.  When I am in the midst of a challenge or struggle, I tend to not want to talk about it.  It is difficult for me to be public with my challenges.  I always want the "right" answer and I usually won't talk about a problem until I know that one, CORRECT answer; thus my reason for not writing a Blog in such a long time. Additionally, I hate it when I make a mistake and I tend to be a demanding perfectionist of my own performance.  I would never have the same expectations for another person that I place upon myself.  As a Christian, I tend to apply this performance mindset to my relationship with the Lord.  In my head, I know it's false, but my day to day living and mental gymnastics are pervaded by this performance mindset.  Not only is it false, but also it pushes me away from Jesus, the one Source that loves and accepts me based on the Cross; not my performance.  ​Just a quick detour: I want to once more clarify, my Blogs are written to believers of the Gospel of Jesus Christ.  Apart from the Gospel of Jesus Christ, I have no hope, cannot please God and cannot attain any worth apart from His Cross.  Living apart from the Gospel is a most hopeless state.  If you are not a believer, I have one simple question; "Why not?"  Okay, back to my Blog... 

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